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Post by adrina on Aug 7, 2016 1:53:37 GMT
I hate the way I feel, I'm coming out of my skin.
i used to be able to predict my periods and would know what week to expect the crazy but they keep coming closer and closer together.
i feel this week like I hate the world. I hate everyone except my dogs.
I just took a double dose of Ambien to end this day and try and start over tomorrow.
This week, I feel like I need to be in a psych unit. I feel suicidal. I feel like I don't love my husband. I feel like telling everyone to fuck off. Sometimes I do. I lost it on a Trump lover who called me a name. I need to figure out how not to react this week, when my natural reaction is to hate everyone for like 5-6 days. Thinking of going back on the pill to try and even out my hormones. At 45 it's not ideal, but I don't fall into any high-risk groups and I'm starting to scare myself.
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Post by AdminAnnie on Aug 7, 2016 2:51:56 GMT
First, thanks for joining adrina!
The same happened to me. I used to be able to predict when they would start and end, but then they got longer and closer together, it didn't seem to matter what birth control I was on.
I still feel like crawling out of my skin (or sometimes worse). I have honestly lost every friend and lover because of this, I just can't stop myself from fucking things up. It's the anger that has really kicked up for me, and I act immature, irrational and inappropriate.
I've been to multiple psych units. They will take you if you express the wish to harm yourself and have a plan. Honestly it is not the worst place to be when you feel like you can't stand another minute in your body. It changes your environment and structure, it would prevent you from acting in ways you might regret later, affecting relationships. You lose freedoms but also have people to watch you and provide some mild meds to help calm down and get through. You can't just check in/check out but you'll also have doctors (request a gynecologist in addition to a psychiatrist, if possible), and you can talk about trying something new. Check out this page and the flow chart to see what some possible next steps are. I'm at the very bottom box.
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Post by adrina on Aug 7, 2016 14:00:36 GMT
I have 2 kids. Going to the hospital for 72 hours would be a holiday! Part of my issue during this week is frustration with my surroundings. It's almost impossible for me to get my house clean and the mess makes me anxious. I have sensory issues with how the bathroom floor feels. Yesterday, I offered to take my neighbors kids while they went to a viewing/wake from "2-4" when they finally showed back up at 9:30, I had to make my husband greet them at the door, Bc. I was afraid of what I would say.
I'm going to make an appointment with a gynecologist and my shrink this week. I feel like every month it gets worse and worse and I am completely powerless against this.
Thanks for your reply and suggestions.
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Post by AdminAnnie on Aug 7, 2016 15:49:19 GMT
So my strange anal retentive, strong OCD-type, nesting tendencies to need to have a clean, sterile, orderly and uncluttered environment isn't just me?
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Post by clairey on Aug 10, 2016 16:02:28 GMT
oh my goodness, thank you for this site. I am literally going mad and my first time t pluck up the courage to see my GP, sge prescribed me the minipill! I am breastfeeding but my god I want to scream most of the time.
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